hey.

So let's face it, this was never what you wanted but I know it was fun to pretend. Now blank stares and empty threats are all I have.
So drown me if you can; or we could just have conversation and I fall, I fall, I falter. But I found you before I drift away.
Now you still speak of day old hate though your whole world has gone up into flames and isn’t it great to find that you’re really worth nothing ? And how safe it is to feel safe.
So drown me if you can; or we could just have conversation and I fall, I fall, I falter. But I found you before I drift away.
The things we do just to stay alive, the things we do just to stay alive, the things we do just to stay alive.

The things we do just to keep ourselves alive.

Live through this and you won't look back.

Had a nice big chat with my cousin yesterday. He agrees that Hayley Williams and Kristen Bell aren't fit, and that Elisha Cuthbert really is. Mind you I think he'd agree with anything I said.
Nice to see that some boys have sense though.
And I'm really unsure about you. And I don't want to be unsure about you because being unsure will make me more unsure, but I'm unsure.

These are my last words, this is my suicide of you

Spent most of last night dragging this lake for the corpses of all my past mistakes sell me out the joke's on you he is salt and you are the wound. Empty another bottle and let me tear you to pieces this is me wishing you into the worst situations i'm the kinda kid that can't let anything go but you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat.

She lives on tisbury lane

Can't tell if i'm hopeful or just stoned.

Detox just to retox. (Boycott love.)

Suddenly feel like i can breathe again.

So sick of hurting now

Can't pretend like i'm not totally cut up about this.
Ow ow ow ow oww :(

Don't you shiver.

It feels good to draw again.

But boys will be boys and girls have those eyes

Looking forward to my day off tomorrow and a night out tomorrow night. That should be good.
I want to take more pictures again. Might take my camera for a day out of its cupboard tomorrow.
One day i'll find out what it is that i'm waiting for, it'll probably be the day that i'm not waiting any more. Is it only me ?
Oh it's hard to tell you this. Here's lookin' at you kid.

Funny old world, funny old me

Today has been a sombre day. Not sure why.

List of things to do today.

I'm feeling really organised. Got some new food in so i can plan meals and i'm definitely eating in if i eat at all tonight, gonna do my homework for prof for my tuesday seminar and sort my shit out about where i have to be for my lectures and things tomoro.
Later on i'm gonna work out how far my food will take me and what i still need to buy or pick up from home and then suss how far this £70 will take me and how much i have spare.
Big grown up girl now.